Where would I be???

It has been a very crazy busy time this past week.

We have successfully completed our first week of school.

YEAH! 

I feel like it will be wonderful, exciting and  teachable year.

I am so excited to see my kiddos and get to know my new ones.

I have already learned a great deal in the first real week.

I have learned that I  will be busy this year.

I have learned that I will need to be flexible.

 I have learned that we all need our anchors.
I know that I need my anchors to help me to be a better
teacher, mother, wife, friend and sister.

I know that I have some major attention deficit disorder tendencies.  

I also know how to help myself to calm down and focus.

It has only taken me 40 years to master my self help skills.  

I know that when I  really feel overwhelmed 

I need someone that really loves me to stop me 

and give me a great big bear hug.

AND as my wonderful girl friend would say

"Shell you need a swift kick in the Butt!".

That may be true as long as you follow it up with a bear hug!

I believe that self awareness is the best skill you can teach anyone.
We are in the beginning stages of this very skill in our class room.

I have a couple new students that need to learn  

 to communicate, with out screaming.
They also are in the process of learning how to appropriately
express all their feelings.
This process is not an easy one, however it will serve every one well.
I do love to see a child look at the object they want and be able
to tell me what it is they want.
They can communicate with pictures, sign and/or any speaking device known to mankind.
I love to expose the children to many different devices to see what
they prefer to use to communicate with.

So this coming year will be a learning year for my new kiddos as well as,
 my fifth graders that will be leaving me.
I am hoping that I have done a good enough job to aid them in
their future successes!
I am also hoping they will continue to learn and grow into the amazing people
I know they are!

Thank you my kiddos for being one of my anchors.
I know that you make me a better person!
Thank you for teaching me some very important lessons in this life!
I also know I have an anchor in my God.
Listen to this new Toby mac song When I heard it for the first time
I feel in love with it.
I can so see my self as this person.
I would be chasing every breeze that blows my way, IF
I did not have HIM to  help me stay focused on the important things in this life.

I really need that focus when life seems full of events that do not go my way.
I know that I can be anchored and have the peace that
ALL WILL BE O.k.

I can not wait to start helping our boy learn his way of communication.
I can not wait for him to teach me some very important lessons.
Therefore, my sweet little boy. hang on and know in your heart we love you and we are coming!

  

The innocent needs to be uplifted! Will you help?

It was a crazy week this past week!

My body is feeling the affects of that.

I have a bad headache and I think that every muscle in my body is tight!

It is my own fault and I know that.  

We got an email stating that our boy was not doing so well.

He is not speaking to others.

He is feeding himself but very badly.

He can walk but not well.

He is still in diapers.  

I was and still am upset not with what he can not do

but that he still doesn't know that we are coming yet.

I can not image how lonely, unloved and worthless he is feeling right now!

I personally hate that feeling and I do not like it when the

innocent children have to feel it!

I want him to know that he is loved

 and we can handle him

 and all his  strengths and weaknesses!

He is ours, He is a Mosley

We still want him.....

We as a family know what we can handle and what we can not.

We know in our heart that he is our boy!

We are waiting on two pieces of paper work to get sent off.

That is one thing that we have learned is that

one is NEVER as for patience because you will get it.  

All of this waiting has increase my patience. 

So while we are waiting and still waiting and still waiting

we are asking for prayers for our boy!

I want him to know that he is loved and that we are working so hard to get to him!

 So if you could find it in your heart please say a prayer for him.

I want this smile to be on his face when I see him.  

On a happy note we have had so many people that have blessed us.

THANK you to all who have helped us with money, prayers,

encouraging words, smiles and a listening ear.

I know that God will bless you for obeying and showing compassion 

to the least of these.  

THANK YOU....

Inter conflict yet one more time! Who is going to win?

First of all I would like to  Thank every body that has had anything to do 

with our adoption.  

I know you all have a job and you know what is best for what is needed!

You are trained and certified in your area, for that I say Thank you!

I however, was not happy when I got an email stating that we needed
to redo some documents.

I was not happy at all, I was a little mad & over whelmed with disappointment.

As tears of frustration ran down my face, I heard my words echo

"We are a good family,

We want to love this child

  and give him a home and a family".

"WHY is that so hard to understand?"

"Why is that so hard to do?"

Then my husband took my hand and said, it is better for us now then later.

I know he is right!  I would rather they find it  and we fix it before we travel.

 However, my heart was conflicted.

We know we are a good family and people that know us know that as well.

I know that we live in a world where people suspect and doubt.

I long for the days that our word was our oath.  

My dad was very firm on that moral.

"He would say Shell if you say your are going to do it

then you better make sure you hold to your word."

I remember living in an era where we could have said so and the word was gold.

I remember times when Dad went to the local grocery store and asked

if he could get some food and pay for it at the end of the month

when he got paid.

I remember him giving his word to the clerk and with a hand shake it was done!

I long for those days when the heart would have a little say in what the brain did.

I know that is probably naive  to think that sometimes the heart

would win and trust what is said.

I know that there are and always will be channels that need to be followed.

No matter how nice the channel is sometimes the ship does not like the journey!

After I get done with looking at my journey, it is nothing in comparison  

to a friend of mine right now.

She is my inspiration and focal point and has been this past week.

She was in a bad house fire and is in a burn center in Lincoln.

She is an amazing mom, wife and friend.

She did what she needed to safe her family many years ago.

She now is in critical condition.

 She has three little ones at home and a loving husband and sister here.

I know she is a fighter and is so worthy to beat this!

So if you believe with your heart in miracles say a prayer for Sara.

Let us yet for a few minutes today

 let our hearts lead the way. 

If your heart tells you to call someone do it!

If it tells you to help a stranger do it!

If it tells you to listen and assist do it!

let us at least for a short time live life with a touch of compassion.

I know that I will today, 

Who is with me?

So for right now there is no conflict

I will allow my heart to rule my thoughts and brain today!

I had a dream.....

The other night I had a dream.

I was standing in the heat and sun while waiting.

I went to walk back inside and only needed one more step to reach the front door,

when I felt a drop of rain run down my head.  

I looked up and the rain fell.  I began to dance in the rain and shout with joy.

I thought for sure that was going to happen today, but it stopped after 12 drop!.

I wanted to have that memory again. The one where I can dance in the rain.

I remember when the girls where little and how much they loved going outside 

and dancing in the rain.  

I remember the laughter and screams as we stomped in the water puddles.

I also enjoyed coming in the house after the fun.

We would share that memory over a cup of hot chocolate.

I was so hoping that would happen again soon. 

Even though I was hoping for a thunder storm 

I am thankful for the moisture that we got.

And the chance to reminisce.

Even though it is hot and dry life is not all bad.  

 We got the news about our paper work being in Smolensk!

We have now entered the translation process.

I feel for the translation people.  I do know how many documents we sent!

We have also had some wonderful person or people that donated to 

our cause.  

I am so overwhelmed and beyond words for 

everyone that has and will continue to help us bring

our boy home!

Thank you Thank You... I do hope to have that same memory with 

him playing in the rain as I did with the girls when they 

where younger.  

I will hopefully have a good dream tonight.  

I hope that all of you will take some time and enjoy those memories

that have marked your heart.

 

tick tock tick tock

Wow where did this week go!

The girls went to camp and I have been busy with

painting, mowing, watering, cleaning

and waiting!

Our paper work was Fed Ex and is on it's way.

That makes me smile and gives my tummy lots of butterflies.

I am so thrilled and so very excited to be hopefully traveling soon!

I can not  wait to see our boy and where he lives.

A wonderful place to see.

The beautiful scenery and amazing culture.

 Plus those amazing people that live there!

This little gorgeous boy lives there.

We had a great time this weekend with a friend's son.  

His name is Toby hi also has Downs he came from the Ukraine about a year ago.

This little boy has made me miss and want my little boy that much more!

I am now going to post my Kersten's favorite song right now.

It is an amazing song and it speaks volume

this is the way we are feeling right now!

Who knew!?!?!

All the paper work for our dossier has been sent!!!

I went to FedEx and sent it off to our adoption agency.

Can any one take a guess at how much all that paper work weighed?

ANY ONE!!!!

It was about four pounds, yes a small cotton wood tree!

Who knew that paper would weigh  so much....

Any way it is off and it will be received in Maryland on Monday at 3:00 p.m.

I am thrilled to death to be done with that paper work for now!

 Another step done and it feels good.

I just got done with asking the the girls
what song we should put on the blog today and they both have their favorites.
So they settled it the old fashion way.
They yelled and screamed and did
rock, paper scissors.
SOOOOOOOOOOO
 the song for today is Kelsee's favorite song right now.
It is by Brit Nicole and it is called look like love.
This song has a very good message and it should leave you thinking.
Thinking every time you encounter some one while you are walking down the street.
It should make you stop and change to be a better person.
So please enjoy this song and celebrate with us!
We do want to look like love to this world,
because we all know that it needs it!

CRY BABY

Yesterday I was a cry baby full of tears and frustration 

due to the lack of control that I do not have!

I had to face the disaster that my emotional train wreck caused.

I talked to the nice lady at the Dr. Office this morning 

and she got us a time with the Dr.

that meeting  made me a little late getting to summer school
 and one of my co-workers gave me grief, Thanks Lumber Jack Boy!:)
Any way back to the phone conversation with the nice lady at the clinic. 

I did applause for my tears and frustration that interrupted my

phone call on Friday.
With some yummy muffins  and many words of apologies
I got our last papers done!
So the end of the story so far is that I send out the paper work to Lincoln
for it to be appostilled.
I am sure that every one within a five mile radius heard my screams of joy!
I know that I also did my happy dance and it was not pretty,
however,
I felt good!

Now today I feel happy and hopeful and that is a great feeling.
I also came to the knowledge of this very important fact:
What good is control if you do not know where you are going? 
I will trust that all happens for a reason.
I know that reason is to help me learn a life lesson.
I am ready!
I think I am in the right place and state of mind.
Let's see what hurdles come tomorrow!
I do know that I will be able to handle it.

I do have a favor if any one of you have any ideas of fundraisers
please let me know!
Thanks for all your support, love and your listening ear.
Sometimes I just need to be human for while!

Have a great night and sleep well
may your day be full of smiles and memories that help
make you into a better person!