WHAT WILL I DO?

 

 

Wait, Wait, Wait

 

 

While waiting for our day in court,

what will I do?

What will I do with the hours of the day?

What will I do with the roller coaster ride of emotions?

What will I do?

While I am trying to live each day as it comes,

What will I do?

There are a great many options?

I have had my fair share of rides BUT this one has been a 

Very long, bumpy, frustrating and exhausting ride.

You know how some rides you ride once and are done.

There are other rides that you love to ride even with all the adrenaline.

Those rides that are scary are sometimes the ones people remember.

WELL this ride has been that, full of

 scary, nerve racking ups and downs

that would make the average stomach flip!

Even though I can not ride rides any more without the 

nausea  feeling and my head spinning,

I have been on this ride for a while.

Sometimes I have enjoyed it and actually learned a great deal.

Sometimes I am just sick of it all and want to get off!

However, one thing I do know about this ride is:

It has made me and my family better people.

We are just better by loving a sweet innocent little boy.

We are better by just enjoying the time we had together.

I am better by learning the wonderful lesson of hope 

that was displayed by the spark in my boy's eye.

I do agree with and know in my own heart,

 It is better to have loved and lost

 then to never have  loved at all.

 

So what will I do while waiting to get my boy home?

I know that the majority of the time I will Stand.

I will not give up on that sweet baby.

He is in my heart and I in his!

I WILL STAND AND WAIT..

I will stand and wait

even though this is the hardest thing 

for me to do, 

I WILL STAND AND WAIT!  

!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

Some moments of the day I am ok.

Some moments I am not!

I am just so tired....

tired of the questions

tired of the rude comments.

tired of  waiting

tired of the self battle!

The battle that rages inside of me.

Knowing that I am not in control and I might have adjust my dreams!

tired of the ebb and flow of emotions!

tired of the waiting!

We will be waiting for some time!

 

I am just a simple women who loves 

children regardless of where they are located.

I just want to make this world a better place while I am still here.

I want to give joy and peace to people.

I want every orphan child to know and experience

the love and support of a family.

If we can not get our boy I would pray

that he would get the change to 

be apart of a loving family!

Even if it is not with us!

That is a statement that brings tears

to my eyes

 and an ache to my heart and soul.

But that is how much I love him and want him to be happy!

All I can do right now is just 

wait and remember how it felt

when He  smiled at me.

Many questions and only one answer!

When?

Why not America?

Why are you so full of emotions?

How long will you do this?

What are thinking?

What will happen if you don't get him?

You tell me that you can look into the eyes of any child

that is in need and just walk away!

If you can you are so in need of  heart surgery.

You are in need of it quickly! 

There are many children in this world that are in need.

The last time I looked we have 313 million people in the U.S.A

The world has about 7 billion people currently living.

With these numbers we would be able to help any child 

no matter the location,

 skin color,

 abilities 

or gender.

If we would choose to be the arms and feet

  of our Father

we could put an end

 to the depraved indifference

 that ravish this world!

Therefore the answer to all of the questions above is ...........

I choose to answer the call of my father!

 I choose to let my Father cause a change in my heart.

I choose to allow him to make me feel!

I do not want to suffer from depraved indifference!

I want to move and cause a change.

So it does not matter where My boy is.

He is God's 

 I will love and fight for him because he also

belongs to my father!

 For my King and His glory We will rescue these little ones!