Sitting, thinking and remembering!

Before we started this newest journey

in our life and our family, I thought.

I thought about many things.

I remember talking with 

the Social worker for our

home study.

I remember showing her some 

of  the rooms in our house.

I also remember telling her

that I would not be

decorating Lucy's room 

until we were officially matched.

Now that time has come and 

the happiness and joy is over whelming!

I know that I need to work

on  Lucy's room.

I know that I need 

to paint the walls.

I need to get the bed

set up.

I need to make time.

As I sit here on the floor.

I think am I really

needing more time

or am I waiting?

Am I waiting ?

Waiting or avoiding?

As I sit here I remember the 

joy of decorating another little one's room.

I remember all the work we put into his room.

I remember how Paul picked the colors.

I remember the girls painting the walls.

I remember laying the carpet.

I remember putting his bed 

and dresser the room.  

I remember the same feeling 

engulfing my being!

I am over whelmed with emotions

as I look around the room.

AM I ready to start decorating this room?

Am I ready to face all the joys and fears 

that occupy the first stroke of paint.  

Am I ready to jump..

Am I ready to trust that this little 

princess will be home 

with us in a little bit of time?

I am ready!

I am ready to allow the feelings 

to help shape me into someone

that is better.

I am ready to be a mom again.

I am ready to have this little one

run through the house.

I am ready to have this gift 

help me with supper.

I am ready!

I am ready because Miss. Lucy Wu

was not ready to be an orphan..

.

Did you hear me?????

I AM READY

BECAUSE MY PRECIOUS

MISS. LUCY WU

WAS NOT READY TO BE

AN ORPHAN!

 

tick tock goes the clock...

Time can be a friend and a Foe!

I also know that 

you can not recycle time either.

So finding a happy balance is

sometimes a huge under taking. 

I have experienced events in my life

that have seemed like forever.

I have also experienced events 

that have seemed to end 

way too soon!

Life seems to be full of 

those time balancing acts.

I am not in one of those events!

We are waiting to become parents again!

 I am in my final trimester.  

We are approaching our due date!

Oct is next month and we are waiting 

for our flight plans.

We are also working on getting every thing 

in order before the trip.  

Time can not get here fast enough,

however time seems to be 

quickly passing.  

Soon I will be hugging this cutie....

I can not believe I will be her momma.

I want to Thank her biological parents 

for loving her so much that 

they are willing to share her with us.

Thank you to her foster parents for

taking care of her until we get there.

Thank God he brought this little one 

into our hearts and soon

in her forever home.  

While we are waiting please pray 

that all goes well.