Sunday, August 28, 2016

Balance not for the faint of heart! Do you have it???

I have learned that the consistent
abuse of ones rights 
lead to a false sense of self entitlement.

This entitlement leads to
a road that is full of 
jealousy  and bitterness.  
These feelings are projected on others.
They also produce self loathing
which is a breeding ground for 
other selfish behaviors.

These selfish feelings 
then push the person into
making some very destructive decisions.

Finally these decisions will 
cloud the mind, heart and ones soul.
Until all one sees is his/ her own rights 
 and no one else's.
Until all one sees is the movement 
or cause that is heading the 
march of ones rights.  
This is done with no regard to 
the affect on others. 

The defintion for a right as a noun
.....a moral or legal entitlement to have or obtain something or to act in a certain way.
"she had every right to be angry"
"you have the right to say no ( goggle)

 As a human and a citizen of 
this earth, I have certain rights.
I am aware that I may have some more
rights than others outside of the United States.  
 I also know that with my rights come
responsibilities as well.

The definition of responsibility as a noun--------
a moral obligation to behave correctly toward or in respect of.
"individuals have a responsibility to control personal behavior"
synonyms:trustworthiness, common sensesensematurity, reliability, dependability
"let's show some social responsibility"(goggle)

I know that I may have rights
 however, carrying out those rights to the extreme 
 is not in my best interest.

I have the right to eat and  to drink anything I want.
I can choose to take any drug I want to my body.
With my continual misuse of my rights 
I could end up  dead or causing 
harm to innocent by standers.
I can also use my rights
to push my own agenda and cause.  

I need to remember that 
with my rights there is also 
some responsibilities. 
I need to remember that 
my decisions affect others  
rights and responsibilities as well.

I need to remember that 
my rights do not trump 
others rights.  

offset or compare the value of (one thing) with another.
"the cost of obtaining such information needs to be balanced against its benefits"
synonyms:weigh, weigh up, compareevaluateconsiderassessappraisejudge
"you need to balance cost against benefit"


What is the cost of my rights???
Is it worth the broken heart of another?
Is it worth the reputation of another?
Is it worth the pushing my agenda?
Is it worth the negative affects?
Who said that I am worth more than any other??????

I know and I believe that we all
have rights and we all have 
responsibilities for those.
I want to be a good citizen.
 I want to make sure that 
I have balance of my rights and responsibilities!

I want to teach others to have balance.
I have thought about balance for awhile now.
I have thought about it and pondered 
why it is such a hard task to complete?


I tend to see my self lose
balance when I lose 
my love for others.
When I love my rights and responsibilities
more than others.
I lose balance when 
I choose to allow my self to  trump 
all others rights.

I need to remember that everyone's 
rights matter not just my
family members.

Every one is a soul.

Every one matters.

I believe if we all remember these facts,
IT will cut down on the misuse of 
ones rights!
I will make sure that I consider
the cost of my right and 
the benefit it brings to me and others.    
I will hope that others would 
do the same.
Look at motives, intend and thoughts
that go into our rights and responsibilities 
and most of all think of balance.  

Friday, January 29, 2016

Introducing the newest family member

Here we are!!

We are finally home and getting into a nice routine.
Lucy Wu Tian is amazing.
She makes us look good.
She has a great sense of humor.
She likes to run.
She likes to pick on her sisters.
She likes to play with her cousin Kali.
She likes to have her nana chase her.

I loved this saying at the child welfare office.
The staff there are amazing.
You should have seen their faces 
as they told us she was the 100th
child to be adopted from that region, 
this year!
We all did a happy dance right there in the office!

I do believe in love at first sight!
I loved her before I heard her say mama.
I loved her before I heard her sweet voice.
I have loved her and I will continue to love her.
I am thankful for the chance to get to love her!

Introducing my newest daughter Lucy Wu Tian.
I want to thank her bio parents for this priceless gift.
I wish I could tell them thank you.
I wish I could hug them and give them some peace
about their little baby girl.
I want them to see what she looks like now!
I want them to know she is well loved and  well valued!

This life changing choice of their's has rippled 
into our hearts and has 
created a 
longing and desire to 
be a family for this special little one!
Thank you .
To all the parents 
 who has had to make a choice
considering the future of their child,
I want you to know 
I do not judge you
with a different standard.
I look at you the same as myself.
I know that I have had to make
choices that others did not agree with.
I know that I had people question
my motives and thoughts.
I know how that feels.
I will not expect any more from you
that I do not expect from myself.
Therefore, I want you to know
how much your choice means to 
the "other parents".

I am crazy thankful for each
and every choice and consquence 
that I get the chance to grow from!

I pray that all my daughters learn this!

Thursday, November 26, 2015

Tis the Season!

I am a Christmas person!
I love the Christmas season!
I love the excitement in the eyes of the children.
I do enjoy the increased 
random acts of kindness.
I also enjoy seeing 
people be more like they should be.
I love seeing the joy and happiness.
Most of all I enjoy taking some time
out of this world and my time 
to truly remember 
that I am so loved.
That my Savior was born
in a manger.
The King came to save us
and at that very moment
crushed all preconceived
ideas and thoughts about
how this King was to rule
the world!

He was born in a manager....
He was wrapped in dirty rags...
He brought a love that was not earned.
This love was received by some 
and rejected by others.
Regardless of what we as humanity thought,
 He always had a heart for us.
He instilled this heart for the lost,
widowed, lonely and orphaned.
He showed us how to forgive and learn from it.
He showed us kindness.
He showed us mercy and grace.
He showed us his heart for servant hood.
He did not want us to be only concerned with us!
He wanted us to see the big picture that lays outside of us.

As I sit here this Thanksgiving day watching the snow fall.
I am reminded that I have neglected the season before Christmas.
I am now made aware of the fact, I can not 
truly enjoy and understand the Christmas season
a thankful heart first!

I am taking some time right now
say out loud some of the things 
that my heart is thankful for.
I am thankful for a job that I love.
I am thankful for the lives I get to interact with.
I am thankful for a warm house.
I am thankful for a car that works.
I am thankful for sight, the ability to walk,
the ability to hear.
I am thankful for a love that this world needs.
I am thankful for the forgiveness 
that many do not understand,
however, one day they will see it!

I know I have made a truck load of 
mistakes and I have hurt
many in my own selfish
I am thankful for the family he gave me.
The family near and far from me on this day.
Distance does not change the place
you hold in my heart. 
I am thankful that two of my children 
are with me on this day.
I am thankful that I got to 
spend some time with
my son!
I am thankful for his touch,
I will for ever be changed 
by his smile
his laughter
his big brown eyes 
where I saw love!
I will never forget that little boy.
I am thankful for you my son
Artem Malcolm Mosley.
I am thankful for the reminder
to never take time for granted.
Thank you for helping me to grow outside of myself.
I thank God for that time with him
and the time without him.  
I thank God for the chance to grow 
and learn the lessons 
of love, compassion, and empathy
that only He can give me .
I know that I would not have learned
these life changing lessons 
without the loving hand of my God.

He brought to my remembrance  one of those lessons.
I was driving with my oldest princess Kersten 
the other day.
While driving to the store 
I heard a song.
This song  helped 
me through my time of grief in 2012
when my heart broke
with the sounds of 
a slamming door.
It did not matter how hard 
I pounded on that door,
no matter how loud
I screamed,
the door was shut!
This song made me cry once more.
Not because of my bitterness, anger
the thought of sadness.
I cried because God did what he promised.
He turned my pain into beauty.

I am a better person.
I am a better mother.
I am better because of HIM!

Because of my lessons 
I am thankful for the ability 
to mother to  another princess.
I am thankful for the trust
to be mother.
I am thankful that in 
12 days 
I will be able to put my
arms around you!
I will be able to hear
your laugh that 
I have only dreamed about.

This Thanksgiving 
I am so thankful
I want to make sure my life shows it!
I wanted to make sure that I 
took some time to 
truly reflect on the many
for my heart being full this season!
I am thankful for the rain, sun,
and wind that comes with each season!

So let us be ready for the  Christmas season
remembering and taking part
 of the Thanksgiving season!

Saturday, November 21, 2015

My prayer

This is the prayer
 I am praying for my littlest Lucy Wu today.
 She is now in the transitional stage
 leaving her Foster family to the orphanage
 until We get her in 17 days!
 Please say some prayers for that sweet baby.

I pray her heart will feel
the love when our eyes met.
I pray she will  be soothed 
by the loving arms of her sisters.
I pray she will find peace
in her daddy's lap.  
I pray that she will 
enjoy being our daughter!
I know that I will love
being her mom.

Thursday, November 12, 2015

I am feeling 22!

I am feeling 22...
Yeah that is in 22 days we
will be flying to China to get
our baby girl!

I am so blessed to be your momma!
I am overwhelmed with a ton
of emotions.

Will you look at me and smile?
Will you hug your sisters?
Will you hold daddy's hand?

I know that I can't wait to 
hug you!
I know that I want 
to comfort you.
I know that I want to 
brush your hair.
I want to hear your laughter
as you and your sisters
tickle each other.
I know that you are 
are so very loved.
Can't wait to see you soon!
Love you Lucy Wu Tian!!!!

Sunday, September 6, 2015

Sitting, thinking and remembering!

Before we started this newest journey
in our life and our family, I thought.
I thought about many things.
I remember talking with 
the Social worker for our
home study.
I remember showing her some 
of  the rooms in our house.
I also remember telling her
that I would not be
decorating Lucy's room 
until we were officially matched.

Now that time has come and 
the happiness and joy is over whelming!

I know that I need to work
on  Lucy's room.
I know that I need 
to paint the walls.
I need to get the bed
set up.
I need to make time.
As I sit here on the floor.
I think am I really
needing more time
or am I waiting?

Am I waiting ?

Waiting or avoiding?

As I sit here I remember the 
joy of decorating another little one's room.
I remember all the work we put into his room.
I remember how Paul picked the colors.
I remember the girls painting the walls.
I remember laying the carpet.
I remember putting his bed 
and dresser the room.  
I remember the same feeling 
engulfing my being!
I am over whelmed with emotions
as I look around the room.

AM I ready to start decorating this room?
Am I ready to face all the joys and fears 
that occupy the first stroke of paint.  
Am I ready to jump..
Am I ready to trust that this little 
princess will be home 
with us in a little bit of time?

I am ready!
I am ready to allow the feelings 
to help shape me into someone
that is better.
I am ready to be a mom again.
I am ready to have this little one
run through the house.
I am ready to have this gift 
help me with supper.
I am ready!
I am ready because Miss. Lucy Wu
was not ready to be an orphan..
Did you hear me?????


Tuesday, September 1, 2015

tick tock goes the clock...

Time can be a friend and a Foe!
I also know that 
you can not recycle time either.
So finding a happy balance is
sometimes a huge under taking. 

I have experienced events in my life
that have seemed like forever.
I have also experienced events 
that have seemed to end 
way too soon!
Life seems to be full of 
those time balancing acts.
I am not in one of those events!
We are waiting to become parents again!
 I am in my final trimester.  
We are approaching our due date!
Oct is next month and we are waiting 
for our flight plans.
We are also working on getting every thing 
in order before the trip.  
Time can not get here fast enough,
however time seems to be 
quickly passing.  
Soon I will be hugging this cutie....
I can not believe I will be her momma.

I want to Thank her biological parents 
for loving her so much that 
they are willing to share her with us.
Thank you to her foster parents for
taking care of her until we get there.
Thank God he brought this little one 
into our hearts and soon
in her forever home.  
While we are waiting please pray 
that all goes well.