Dreams, what do they mean?

I have had many dreams.

 I actually  have a re-occurring dream.

A couple of them!

 One of my re-occurring dream I enjoy having.

I had a dream about a place that I have visited.
I could feel the walls.
I could smell  the food.
I could hear the noises.
I could see my boy.
I could see him running around laughing.
I could feel  his hands holding mine.




Next thing I know he is no where to be found.
I remember running around the building looking for him.
I opened door after door and I could not find him.
Next thing I remember is that I was whisper in some ones ear.
There where several of them.
One after another I whispered in their ears.
The cool thing was that the people could not see me!
After I whispered in the last person's ear
I ran down the hall way and
opened the last door and I finally  got him....

I know that I feel like Abraham  and Sarah sometimes.
This waiting period is long, emotionally exhausting and not for the faint of heart.
Then I think about what the kids must be going through!!!
They are confused, worried, wondering if they are the problem.
I wonder if they are finding it hard to face the days.
I wonder if they cry when the think of us.
I wonder if they have dreams about the future.
I know they do!
I want to tell all the kids to hang in there.
Please don't give up!
WE will not give up on you!
We love you and would move heaven and earth to get to you.
If I could I would whisper in your captive's ear,
"Allow the dreams to shape the future"
"Please let me go home to my family!"
I am singing this song with the kids!

Please God bring our children home!!!

What part of the picture do you see?

I used to be very happy when I saw his smiling face.

I would laugh when I would dream about

 what food he would like to eat.

We would wonder if he would like cars, blocks and colors.

I would dream of the day we could take him to the Zoo.

I looked forward to the day that our family

 picture would feature our newest member.

I could see Kersten looking into his brown eyes and kissing his nose.

I could see Kelsee tickling his tummy and messing up his hair.

I would look at his picture several times a day 

and I would be able to  see him with us!

He would have sang and shouted and loved

the lights and music from Winter Jam.

He could have  played with Nick and Kallie.

He could have enjoyed all the love from Aunt Julie

 and Uncle Lonnie.  

Nate could have taught him ho to play the newest

game in his ipad.

Kaylee could have taught him how to properly eat hot chicken!

Eggy could have taught him how to lie to his momma

about a house guest.

Bethany could have just listen to him  

and give him the support he needed.

Ray would have taught him the  fine art of ADD at the Mall.

  

    

Even today when we went prom dress shopping,

I thought of how much fun he would have by helping.

He would   have enjoyed the many different shops

and of course all the toys! 

When I came home I was thinking of him yet once more!   

When I looked down the hall I would 

image him running and yelling our names to come

save him.

SAVE HIM, That is what we are trying to do!

 

 

Since Dec 31st our hearts have been on the edge!

That is putting mildly.   

How do you expect us to feel when our son might not 

be able to come home to the family that loves him!

This sitting on pins and needles have really done a trick on all our hearts and souls!

Kersten is graduating soon and has a great deal

 to think about and plan for.

She came to me with tears in her eyes and

 asked when Artem was coming home?!?!?!

 

What can I tell her?

What?????

I don't know? 

 

In the middle of a hug and sobbing Kelsee

joins in and says I want my brother home.

Me too!! 

Me too I wanted to shout!!   

I have had some good days and I have had some bad days.

There has been less times of smiling and dreaming.

I get caught up in what I can not see.

 I see the big red stop sign and I yell in frustration!

I start to talk to God and asking him to explain all of this!

Lately I have not been a good daughter.

I have focused on the impossible side and said O.K.

That is until I heard this song.  

It is about Abraham and Sarah.

 I have felt like them lately.  I know what I am promised.

Artem is ours!

Now and in the coming days of this year, 

I need to listen and apply this song to my heart!

         
I am so blessed for God to dream his dream in me!

I will believe!

I will be patient with the journey.

I will not let go of what is mine!

I will believe in what I can't see!