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Update!

We are leaving  on Nov. 4th.

There is a great deal of emotions that come with this journey.

Fear, doubt, excitement, happiness,  all of these have hit me at one point or another.

There has been moments that I have experience all of these in the same hour.

I do know that I am so very blessed.  

I have had several encouraging notes and words this week.  

We received a nice Thank you and some money to help pay for our trip.

Because of all the emotions that have pledged me thus far

I was accused of being pregnant!

Well sort of, I thought!

I do not have to have the physical labor pain, But I have had some labor!

Labor of my time and how that taxes my emotions. 

Labor of doubt and fears that invade my thoughts.

A labor of love that will be with in reach soon.

How we as a family have longed for this time to come and now it has.

I know that I am not the only one who is feelings that have overwhelmed my being!

My girls are so very thrilled and nervous at the up coming trip.

I can finally go over and see those innocent angels  who have touched my heart.

I can finally see and touch and speak life to their hearts.

I can finally see my boy and hug him.

I can finally tell him that he is so amazing and such a gift.

I may not be physically pregnant I feel like I am.

I cry at the silly commericals while craving chocolate.  

WAIT I did that before I was pregnant!.. ha

Paul has reminded me that we only have 23 days left.  

What to do what to do!

Too many things to do!

I will try to remind myself what I tell my kids..

Smell my flowers and blow out my candles!

Three deep breaths and relax!

Before I wrap up my thoughts I wanted to say

Thank you to all who have helped us so far.

I know that I do  not deserve all the I receive and for that I am so Thankful!

This is the song that has been playing over and over in my head this week.

I hope that you can and will enjoy it.

HAPPINESS, NERVOUSNESS, EXCITEMENT, and any other emotions you can throw in!

We just got the news we will be traveling on Oct. 27th.

We will then will able to see and love on him!

I can not wait to see his cute little face.

I want to see his smile in person.

I want to see his gorgeous brown eyes.

I did not think that this time would ever come.  

I was waiting and waiting and dreaming dreaming!

FINALLY

so my sweet little boy we are coming soon.

WOOOHOOOOO!!!

We  will also need some more money to help fund this trip.

If you feel it in your heart to give please do so.

perspective!

What do you see?

Do you see the young lady or the old lady?

It is amazing to to me what image people see first!

I presented this picture with my youth group one  time

 and it was eye opening, to see who saw what image!

I had some youth that could not see the old lady,

I had some that could not see the young lady.

That was until I told a red pen and out line the young lady first.

I outlined the old lady in blue.

So I ask you one more time what image to you see.  

At first glance I see a young lady.  

I can also see the old lady.

 This lesson was brought home to my mind and soul today.

It amazes me what some people see.

I am also sure that is what people say when they speak of me.

I can see the child suffering with the affects of a stroke as a teacher of independence

I can look at a child with a severe physical disability and see love.

I can look at a child who is controlled by the impulsive manner and see humility. 

When people only see sadness, despair, pity or hopelessness 

when they look at my children that are disabled, 

 I will warn you to LISTEN and LOOK  to

 the children whispering  lessons of love, beauty, hope, kindness, compassion and laughter. 

I choose to see only those things!

I believe in the statement that one man's junk can be another man's treasure!

I also believe that Love is in the eye of the beholder.  

These statements are talking about some ones perspective.

I would want for every one to have a perspective change 

IF

all they see is the negative or the darkness in everything!

I understand people wanting us to be informed about our soon

to be son.  

However, when some one  says severely delayed 

I see a few extra lessons taught at his level.

Each and every time I look at our boy.

I see a cute little boy who needs love and structure.

I see a little cutie who is wanting to learn and practice what he is taught!

I see my son that is up for any challenge.

He is not willing to give up and neither am I.

 Every time I look at these innocent blessings that I do not deserve,

 I will be sure to teach, love, care for and hopefully better them;

because  what I choose to see the true image!

My baby boy please listen to that voice whispering love and peace to you right now!

We love you and I can not wait to hold you my sweet pea!

 I do know that we all loved to be held.

 I love the way He helps me to keep my perspective!

 

WAIT did some one say Wait!??????

  I remember hearing my momma saying this comment.

"Weight is what broke the wagon!"

I was confused about the wait/weight. 

I do know what she meant now.  

It is the the wait that is truly breaking us!

The wait seems to never end!

It may cause some anxiety and the wait does cause

some extra weight on my heart and mind.

I hate that feeling of being heavy and working extra  hard

 to do the normal day activities.

 I have jokingly expressed that I will not be praying for patience

any more due to his promise of giving it to me.

I have learned to be careful what I ask for!

We are still waiting to hear when we get to travel for the first time.

 We are also still waiting to hear how our boy is doing?

I also know it is unfair and wrong to judge all men by 

another man's mistakes.  

So we will have to wait  for words, wait for a visit.

Just wait!

We will wait to see what happens in next chapter of our Mission Possible.

Even if the wait is long and sometimes painful  we will not give up

we will do what is requested!

 We will make this mission that seems impossible 

very, very possible!

Where would I be???

It has been a very crazy busy time this past week.

We have successfully completed our first week of school.

YEAH! 

I feel like it will be wonderful, exciting and  teachable year.

I am so excited to see my kiddos and get to know my new ones.

I have already learned a great deal in the first real week.

I have learned that I  will be busy this year.

I have learned that I will need to be flexible.

 I have learned that we all need our anchors.
I know that I need my anchors to help me to be a better
teacher, mother, wife, friend and sister.

I know that I have some major attention deficit disorder tendencies.  

I also know how to help myself to calm down and focus.

It has only taken me 40 years to master my self help skills.  

I know that when I  really feel overwhelmed 

I need someone that really loves me to stop me 

and give me a great big bear hug.

AND as my wonderful girl friend would say

"Shell you need a swift kick in the Butt!".

That may be true as long as you follow it up with a bear hug!

I believe that self awareness is the best skill you can teach anyone.
We are in the beginning stages of this very skill in our class room.

I have a couple new students that need to learn  

 to communicate, with out screaming.
They also are in the process of learning how to appropriately
express all their feelings.
This process is not an easy one, however it will serve every one well.
I do love to see a child look at the object they want and be able
to tell me what it is they want.
They can communicate with pictures, sign and/or any speaking device known to mankind.
I love to expose the children to many different devices to see what
they prefer to use to communicate with.

So this coming year will be a learning year for my new kiddos as well as,
 my fifth graders that will be leaving me.
I am hoping that I have done a good enough job to aid them in
their future successes!
I am also hoping they will continue to learn and grow into the amazing people
I know they are!

Thank you my kiddos for being one of my anchors.
I know that you make me a better person!
Thank you for teaching me some very important lessons in this life!
I also know I have an anchor in my God.
Listen to this new Toby mac song When I heard it for the first time
I feel in love with it.
I can so see my self as this person.
I would be chasing every breeze that blows my way, IF
I did not have HIM to  help me stay focused on the important things in this life.

I really need that focus when life seems full of events that do not go my way.
I know that I can be anchored and have the peace that
ALL WILL BE O.k.

I can not wait to start helping our boy learn his way of communication.
I can not wait for him to teach me some very important lessons.
Therefore, my sweet little boy. hang on and know in your heart we love you and we are coming!

  

The innocent needs to be uplifted! Will you help?

It was a crazy week this past week!

My body is feeling the affects of that.

I have a bad headache and I think that every muscle in my body is tight!

It is my own fault and I know that.  

We got an email stating that our boy was not doing so well.

He is not speaking to others.

He is feeding himself but very badly.

He can walk but not well.

He is still in diapers.  

I was and still am upset not with what he can not do

but that he still doesn't know that we are coming yet.

I can not image how lonely, unloved and worthless he is feeling right now!

I personally hate that feeling and I do not like it when the

innocent children have to feel it!

I want him to know that he is loved

 and we can handle him

 and all his  strengths and weaknesses!

He is ours, He is a Mosley

We still want him.....

We as a family know what we can handle and what we can not.

We know in our heart that he is our boy!

We are waiting on two pieces of paper work to get sent off.

That is one thing that we have learned is that

one is NEVER as for patience because you will get it.  

All of this waiting has increase my patience. 

So while we are waiting and still waiting and still waiting

we are asking for prayers for our boy!

I want him to know that he is loved and that we are working so hard to get to him!

 So if you could find it in your heart please say a prayer for him.

I want this smile to be on his face when I see him.  

On a happy note we have had so many people that have blessed us.

THANK you to all who have helped us with money, prayers,

encouraging words, smiles and a listening ear.

I know that God will bless you for obeying and showing compassion 

to the least of these.  

THANK YOU....

Inter conflict yet one more time! Who is going to win?

First of all I would like to  Thank every body that has had anything to do 

with our adoption.  

I know you all have a job and you know what is best for what is needed!

You are trained and certified in your area, for that I say Thank you!

I however, was not happy when I got an email stating that we needed
to redo some documents.

I was not happy at all, I was a little mad & over whelmed with disappointment.

As tears of frustration ran down my face, I heard my words echo

"We are a good family,

We want to love this child

  and give him a home and a family".

"WHY is that so hard to understand?"

"Why is that so hard to do?"

Then my husband took my hand and said, it is better for us now then later.

I know he is right!  I would rather they find it  and we fix it before we travel.

 However, my heart was conflicted.

We know we are a good family and people that know us know that as well.

I know that we live in a world where people suspect and doubt.

I long for the days that our word was our oath.  

My dad was very firm on that moral.

"He would say Shell if you say your are going to do it

then you better make sure you hold to your word."

I remember living in an era where we could have said so and the word was gold.

I remember times when Dad went to the local grocery store and asked

if he could get some food and pay for it at the end of the month

when he got paid.

I remember him giving his word to the clerk and with a hand shake it was done!

I long for those days when the heart would have a little say in what the brain did.

I know that is probably naive  to think that sometimes the heart

would win and trust what is said.

I know that there are and always will be channels that need to be followed.

No matter how nice the channel is sometimes the ship does not like the journey!

After I get done with looking at my journey, it is nothing in comparison  

to a friend of mine right now.

She is my inspiration and focal point and has been this past week.

She was in a bad house fire and is in a burn center in Lincoln.

She is an amazing mom, wife and friend.

She did what she needed to safe her family many years ago.

She now is in critical condition.

 She has three little ones at home and a loving husband and sister here.

I know she is a fighter and is so worthy to beat this!

So if you believe with your heart in miracles say a prayer for Sara.

Let us yet for a few minutes today

 let our hearts lead the way. 

If your heart tells you to call someone do it!

If it tells you to help a stranger do it!

If it tells you to listen and assist do it!

let us at least for a short time live life with a touch of compassion.

I know that I will today, 

Who is with me?

So for right now there is no conflict

I will allow my heart to rule my thoughts and brain today!