Monday, April 8, 2013

Getting close to the end of a chapter!


I have read many books in my life.
I started with picture books and as I grew
the books also grew.

I love to read!
I enjoy and smile with the funny parts.
I cry with the sad parts.
I can see the characters.
I like to see the conflict and the resolution unfold
as I turn the pages.

 I do not like the ending of a good book.
Sometimes I find it sad because I can 
really relate to the characters and the 
journey they are on.
I have found that my life is alot like a book.
I have enjoyed the fun and growing parts.
I have cried and mourned  during the sad ones.
I have also found some times in my life to be challenging!

As the days approach the closing of a chapter
is nearing.
I can feel the beating of my heart.
I can feel the sadness of my thoughts.
I can feel the excitement as my daughter
is getting ready to step out on her own!  

As I reflect on how the years have passed 
I am thrilled, excited, nervous and sad all at the same time.
My daughter is growing up!
She is learning who she is and what she is to do
with the skills and abilities she is given!
She has been a blessing and I am so proud and honored to be her momma.

I am so thrilled to be a momma.  I love my children.
 My wonderful daughters have taught me so much.
The joy of laughter and acting silly.
The affects of not giving up.
 I have had a hard time recently trying to explain why.
My Kersten and Kelsee have had a rough few days.
Since January it has been a hard and bumpy road.
The days are filled with emotions and uncertainty.
The days have been full of waiting and learning.
The days have been full of tears, doubting and longing.
Longing for our family to have an addition.

For the past week the girls have slept in Artem's room.
This makes me sad and a little mad.
I can just see the girls cuddling him and playing with him.
I can see him smiling and laughing as they tickle him.
I see all these things with my minds eye 
then as I gaze around the room I see the 
chalkboard in his room with these words on it
"Artem  we are ready!"  
We are ready, waiting, praying!
This chapter of my book I would like to have a happy ending.
The more I wish for the waiting to end for Artem 
the closer my Kersten gets to  spreading her wings.
Here is the one thing that I do know,
This chapter is ending soon and I know it will have a happy ending!
It will be happy for both of my children!